It’s Okay…

Just my heart…just my view.

I know politics has divided so many of us Americans from loved ones and friends. I have experienced it within my own family and friend groups. Last year, in my own selfishness, I became so caught up in the politics competition. Where I competed to be right and to be heard and I did it with intent and purpose. I thought I needed to ring the bell. Sound the alarms. The competition to have others hear my opinions and political views became infuriating and suffocating. I found myself in divisive conversations that I did not want to be in with strangers, friends and family members. The unfollow my friends selection I used quiet often or I just began skipping posts. It effected me because I cherish all the relationships in my life. I want nothing more than peace amongst us. But somehow, I found I kept finding the trigger points in my conversations or posts that led me to engage in unwanted heated discussions of politics. Needless to say, it only brought up arguments and division in my relationships.

I finally had to ask myself what good was this doing for me or for others? What good was I doing for my relationship and witness in Christ? I was convicted of…

Phil 2:14-16, Scripture says: Do all things without grumbling or disputing, that you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world, holding fast to the word of life….

I decided I needed to make a change. Stop engaging the political news and views. I needed to set boundaries for myself and not involve myself in conversations of political natures. I tried to avoid entering into political posts. I tell you I haven’t always succeeded to the temptation of those triggers but I try. I soon had to realize that our first amendment right allowed us all to think, believe and respond or to not respond freely to others beliefs. I’m not saying we shouldn’t speak up or share our views but doing it with an argumentative competitive spirit doesn’t work. Freedom of speech is our right. It’s how we do it that matters most. We don’t have the right to try and make others believe their opinions are wrong. We have the right to agree or disagree and to listen or not listen. That is our American Democracy right to be free thinkers and decision makers over our own lives. It’s not my role or responsibility to try to influence others to think like me. To teach grown adults by law right from wrong. First of all, that teaching groundwork has long been laid before becoming an adult. Thank goodness! That is an impossible role to fill. I realize I don’t have to engage in pouring gasoline on the fires of political discussions. It is ok if we have different opinions and worldviews. That is why God gave us free will in the first place. To make our own choices and not be robots responding to others ideas and views or how others think or choose what is right for them to believe. Everything we do and have experienced in our lifetimes have become our plumb lines guiding us to our moral compass and foundational views. We are raised and grow up with morals and standards that teach us right from wrong. We learn it from parents, teachers, family members and friends, from laws, our faith and governments. Everything is used to shape us into being the best adult person we can be. We take everything we know to be true and all our life experiences teach us to form our own system of opinions and values and beliefs. We begin to learn all of this from a very young age. We learn this until 18 years of age, when we are told we have become adults. We leave home believing we have the tools necessary to go be an adult in this world. We have the right to the freedom of being our own person. We can now go find a career choice, go vote, go join the military and so on. But, quickly we learn that we don’t have all the tools or all the answers necessary for our life. We find we aren’t as prepared as we thought. But that’s ok. We each have our own life journey to travel. If we are wise, we will still see our need for advice and our need for instructions that they never cease. We find as people, we are still learning and always growing into who we are as a person each and every day. And we recognize we’re all different as people with different colors, shapes and sizes with different minds, thoughts and opinions. We recognize we are individuals created with the ability to make our own choices and decisions with our own ideas and beliefs. With our own goals and dreams. Truly we start to see our own humanity. If we seek to understand our humanity we can begin to see we all want the same things for ourselves, our families and our country. We all want a happy, peaceful, prosperous, healthy and awesome life and world to live in for our children and grandchildren and their children and grandchildren and all generations to come. We see we may all want the same things but we all have different views on how best to achieve them. What I have learned is it’s okay…It’s okay to be of different colors, shapes and opinions. We don’t have to agree on anything at all yet, we can still respect the individual humanity in each of us. We don’t have to agree, however, for unity’s sake we do need to seek peace and respect the humanity of one another. Let’s respect the free thinking of others and be proud that we all may have different ideas. Let us celebrate the fact it’s not our job to make us think like one another or try and believe like everyone else. Let’s listen more to each other’s hearts with a tone of love and empathy. Let’s look for the common ground of what we want for our country and visit there. Let’s share and listen to the experiences that have shaped us. Let’s set boundaries to divisiveness. Let’s talk or debate less about which party or which candidate is right or wrong for political offices. Let’s talk more of the hope we share.Have we lost the unity and respect of listening and showing love to others by putting others above our own selves? I know I had. I find it’s too easy to get caught up in competing to be heard to be right and getting into the pride trap of not wanting to be wrong. Few of us truly know those in office and how they are behind closed doors yet we fight and argue as if we do. Only God knows the hearts of mankind. It’s not my job, duty or responsibility to tell others who, what, where, when or how they should think, act or feel. Not my job to be the moral police.It is my duty to be a good neighbor and love and respect all who are different and who may disagree with my political viewpoints. It is my job to keep peace as much as it is possible for me to do so. Therefore, I want to take the first step with myself, the only person “I” can control as to what “I” think, and do and what “I” believe. My job with what “I” wish to become as a facilitator to peace and to unite and reconcile our country. The first step begins with me, Cindy Towsley, a proud American and responsible registered Voter who stands with respect for all parties with their right to think. The right to your own freedom and democracy. Your right for peace and the pursuit of happiness and your right for liberty to all. -—-this my friends is Cindy Towsley and I approve this message. And it’s perfectly okay with me if you don’t agree with it. I still respect you completely.

“Tell yourself that it’s OK that everyone has their own opinions, even if they’re completely different than your own. Remind yourself that you don’t have to change anyone’s minds, it’s not your job.”- DEBORAH DULEY, PSYCHOTHERAPIST AND FOUNDER OF EMPOWERED CONNECTIONS IN MARYLAND

Final Goodbye

Today is my 34th wedding anniversary.  Happy Anniversary! I texted him.

It’s a mixed bag of nuts for me I won’t lie. We’re married but haven’t lived together in the same house in five years. We still talk and we never seperated finances or anything on paper. I basically worked as his assistant for the last 5 years. Managing his and mine and our finances and household as if nothing changed. Nothing did except the relationship and living quarters.

To just throw away 34 years of marriage is not an easy thing to do. I pleaded with him at first when he didn’t want to be married to me anymore. He was clear what and who he wanted and it wasn’t me. It stung. Stabbed me deep. Destabilized my entire being.

First, it was another woman that he wanted more than me. In the long run, the feelings weren’t reciprocated by her. They’re just friends now he says. Nothing physically ever happened he tells me. Like that makes it alright. Ok, if you say so, but that doesn’t change the fact you loved and desired her over me. You looked upon her and committed adultery in your heart against me. When he told me he loved her and wanted her in his life. I was shattered. He was leaving and he refused to put her out of his life and work on our marriage. I said I wasn’t willing to share with her being in your life. So he left me. Alone. Abandoned. Desecrated. Left me the wife now turned his assistant, to figure out the broken mess of debt, foreclosure, closing my business and the ramifications of a life altering car wreck.

After 6 months, when I began to get things stabilized he wanted to come back home. He would give her up. Turned out they had fought and she kicked him out of her house. Her and her fiance. Yeah it was a messy unhealthy situation he had himself in. Why now I asked? What’s changed since you left?

I prayed and asked God for a sign of protection for me to know truth when he answers me. I asked God to give me the wisdom to know what to say and to know if he had really changed. I didn’t want to say yes just because I was lonely and sad. Nothing had changed or been fixed. I needed God’s duscernment to let me know if he had changed and wanted our marriage and me for the right reason not just because he had no where to go.

I was weakened then. I knew I couldn’t make the right choice without God.  When I heard his words answer why and him giving the reasons why he wanted to come home I knew I had heard those same words before. Oh yeah, those were my words when Icwas pleading with him to stay. I felt it the sign I had ased for hit me in the heart. I knew the protection from God was raining down over me in that moment. God’s peace flooded my soul frim my head to my toe. I felt the peace that it was ok. When he answered me why now he should come home and I knew his words had been my words not his own. I knew he was saying verbatim what I said to him in. He was telling me what he thought I wanted to hear and not the truth of how he felt.  It’s like a ton of bricks fell from me. I felt the release from God to move on. I had God’s permission to let go of my marriage..

I, the wife turned assistant, partly mother, helped him search for apt and found him one. He didn’t want it. He took the offer of staying with a friend of ours who had a house on the lake. A free camper he could stay in when he was home from driving the road.

I held on longer praying and hoping I would see his heart change for God. I focused on my healing and time went on. I prayed for him to see his need for God during the last 5 years. I asked his forgiveness for any wrongs I may have caused him in our marriage. I apologized for reacting harshly with my words out of hurt and frustration. I had to say these things. I wanted a clean unbittered heart.

In five years, I have seen him return to his old ways of drinking, partying like he is still in high school instead of a 62 year old man. He has changed his language, he’s cursing continually like taking a breath, smoking heavier and living only for himself. That’s the peace he told me he chose. I could clearly see he wants nothing to do with God. He told me so. Our hearts are so far apart now. Not connected in anything but memories and for now legal contracts and paperwork.

A couple weeks ago, he just up an quit his job. The job that provided our health insurance and paid our bills. It was his decision to take early retirement now. He earned it he said. And he did. So, he abandoned me once again with no discussion of how my losing my health insurance and income would effect me. He just did it then told me. Left me with all the finances again and bills and no guaranteed income. No longer wife ou r assistant, just disabled senior woman who has to wait for 4 years before retirement. I have no insurance to cover my medical health issues.. he just decided he deserved his retirement and he was taking it. Great! But what about me? I was still attached to you we were still working together. Not anymore…nope…now I am Hanging… justa hangin!

Left me to figure it all out again. Abandoned. Brokened. I’m shaken again but this time I’m not down.

Feeling maybe this is part of the good God intends for me. Like a bird being pushed from the nest I felt. Maybe God is moving things I did not have the courage to move for myself. Shaken and covered in dust but I am still standing.

Now the hard part must begin. The final goodbye. The last anniversary we will ever share. I had to be sure it was truly over. It is.

This week, I tried my last ditch effort one last time to salvage us and our marriage.  Now, he tells me, his excuse for not wanting our relationship is the lake life..he chose peace.. he wants more country life… he’s not a traveler.. he just loves the country and lake and being able to sit by the fire and watch what he wants too when he wants too (btw.. I don’t get that when we had a tv in every room and we enjoyed many shows that he chose together) he now can sleep when he wants too, I never stopped him from sleeping ever.

He now has his alcohol drinks and smoking by the campfire as many as he wants with his fruends when he wants too. He is happy to share the posts of himself and the lake and drinks in hand on his social media. He’s proud of who is and the life he has now. It breaks my heart to see him like this. The man I knew and loved he was sober for 15 years in the first part of our marriage after coming out of drug and alcohol addiction. I can hear you critics right now thinking, You married an addict/alcoholic what did you expect? For 15 years, his testimony was one of overcomer. He prayed and asked God to remove that addictive desire from his life and God did.  A few disappointments in life and back to the bottle he went. My question is where did that man go? The one who looked to God for help. The one who now tells me that godly man is not him. Was he a pretender? Where did he go? The man I see today is not him. Honestly, I don’t believe he ever truly was. He changed his behavior for what he wanted not for God. Now he is looking over the water at his lake house and getting to do what he wants to do, when he wants to do it, that’s him that’s who he is, he proudly tells me. God doesn’t leave you. I always questioned if he was saved where is the desire for God. The fruit. I never saw it in him. I wanted too. It was bv ever there. A person can only fake it for so long. Truth always comes forth and shows itself.

He said he is choosing peace today. The only problem with his peace is you can’t have his peace of nature without seeing the one who created it.  You cannot run away from God. He is ever present. Always there. He says to me that I’m not the godly man you wanted. I never will be. He tells me I pray when I was driving for safety and not wanting to hurt others. So, he is praying when he drives. So he thinks he is good with God and a good person yet, he says I am not the godly man you need.

Its a clear contradiction to our faith. I told him of the warning of Truth in scriptures of trying to be a lukewarm christian and what a true Christ follower desires God and has fruit evident in his life. I told him I am speaking now not in judgement but in love and concern. I told him he doesn’t truly know the gospel and the power of God’s love over his life because if he did he would never just walk away from it.  I told him.. in love.. I pray for your soul that before you breathe your last breath you will know the love of God. I pray before you die.. God will say to you well done my good and faithful servant now come enter in and receive your rewards. I pray that he won’t  wait too long and continue to reject God in his life and in the end he hears I never knew you.. now depart from me. 

Then I told him what a godly man was that I had wanted with him was simple… I iust wanted a man who put Christ first. A true Christ follower.  All  I wanted was to just share the love of Christ in my heart with him. After that he ghosted me. Texts ended. Silence. Crickets.

First, he didn’t want me he was in love with the other woman..who now doesn’t reciprocate his feelings and they’re still just friends.  He says he still loves me he always will. Today, though he just wants the lake life. First younger woman now great lake life how do I compare or compete?  I don’t.  Guess I should have let go 5 years ago when God gave me the ok to release from the marriage. But I needed time to heal to see if he would return to God. I never wanted to have another divorce. I loved him. I still love him part of me always will. You don’t share 35 years as a couple and be friends for 44 years to just walk away from it. At least I couldn’t. He didn’t struggle as much as I did obviously.

What I realized now in all of this I just never felt I deserved to be loved by him or by anyone.

Now I do. Now it’s time to say Happy anniversary for the last time. I have waited and given him every chance to choose and fight for our marriage and he has shown repeatedly not only doesn’t he want our marriage but he no longer wants godliness in his life.

I have to move forward from this unhealthy bondage I am in. God does love me and He wants so much more for me than this. It’s just so hard to let go of the oneness we once shared. The memories.

I’ve been through some stuff in the last 5 years. Not just my marriage ending..there was the car wreck, surgery and sexual assault then losing my business and nearly losing my home.

In all of this pain and suffering the one thing sustaining me through it all is my faith in knowing God was and is with me. Ever present always protecting and healing and loving me. 

I have done everything I could possibly do to keep peace in my marriage and try to save it. It is beyond repair at this point. I have to accept that and move forward in the freedom of Christ.  I can walk away now with a clear conscience knowing I did all I could do to save it. 

It’s time now to move on to the next stage in life God has for me. I’m a little shaky in my legs like a new colt who can barely stand.  I know God is beside me helping me leading and directing my every move. I am in his hands and nothing or no one can ever pluck me out.

I have a true relationship with Christ.  It isn’t about what he can do for me it’s about what he has done for me at the cross.  The fact he willingly lay down his life and bled to death for me and you is the truest of true love there is. That pure love sustains me in everything. He chose me the lowliest of sinners as the one to die for in order that I could be reconciled to God. He chose me to be in relationship with Him.  He willingly laid down his life for me when I didn’t deserve it. How could I not give my heart and life to live and to abide in him always? How could I not want to please him and obey his commands for my life? It’s impossible for me to choose anything else.. person or creation or any other way of living than Christ and Christ alone.. 

Having Jesus first place in my life is me. Once you’ve truly tasted the love of God its impossible to turn your back on it.  I won’t lie, in my angriest time at God, I tried to disengage but I couldn’t. He protected me and drew me back into his healing wings. He is my life and breath. 

I’m not perfect by any means.  I fall short every day. But the one thing I never fall short in is God’s love for me. His grace and mercy are always new and  never ending. Because of his great love, I have hope for healing and a future of joy being made complete in him. 

That’s the testimony. His love is enough for me to have an abundant life. I may suffer, I may struggle but I will never be lacking in the fruits of His Spirit to bring me all I need for my best life. Though My husband.. my man.. may reject me for others, for a certain lifestyle or just for pure evil…My God never will…he will never abandon or leave me nor will he ever forsake me. He has my back. 24/7. 

It’s his word and promises I hold onto today, on this final anniversary. Though hurt is present right now there is a god given guarantee that His joy will be present in me in the morning. God is for me so who can be against me. No one! Notta!!! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!! I do not fear what man can do to me. My legs will become stronger and I will rise up on wings like an eagle. My spirit will be strengthened and renewed for His glory. What my man meant for evil God intends it for good. He will work all of these sufferings over my life to the good because I love Him and He has called me for his purposes.

This is my story and God’s testimony.  To him be the glory forever!

Godly fear is good…

Godly fear a precious, all-consuming emotion that enables us to have an eternal relationship with God and to avoid the snares of this world. Proverbs 14:27 advises us that godly fear is the fountain of lie that keeps us from the snares of death.—

There’s been great debate over Godly fear vs ungodly fear. Many are misinformed on fear being given to us by God for our good. You must understand the differences between the two types of fear. Fear can be positive and good and it can be negative and sinful. Examples of godly fear in scriptures…
Jeremiah 32:40, And I will make an everlasting covenant with them, that I will not turn away from them, to do them good; but I will put my fear in their hearts, that they shall not depart from me.”
Hebrews 12:28, “Wherefore we receiving a kingdom which cannot be moved, let us have grace, whereby we may serve God acceptably with reverence and godly fear.”
Proverbs 14:27, “The fear of the Lord is a fountain of life, to depart from the snares of death.”
Proverbs 16:6, “By mercy and truth iniquity is purged: and by the fear of the Lord men depart from evil.”

Great article on this matter…

Certainty In Uncertain Times

It’s official…Zero income. Zero health insurance. Zero financial security. Thats my reality here on this earth today. As I think on this…
Life is looking pretty scary and humbling for me and for most of us. But we can’t give up on hope.  Our hope isn’t in another human being or our finances.  Am I scared? Yes! Uncertainty warrants fear in us.  But we need not fear because our hope lies within a personal relationship with Jesus Christ and nothing else. 
Do you personally know him? Walk with him? Pray with him? Live for him everyday?
I don’t have anything secured on this earth right this minute in fact I have zero guarantees.  That scares me alot.  I have to remind myself of the fact that The one thing I do have is my forever security sealed up in Christ.  I have riches stored up in heaven where nothing can destroy them.  Not moth and rust not disapproval not Covid19. Knowing this gives me assurance and peace in my heart and mind. I have certainty knowing Jesus is where I will live for my eternity.  Jesus will be my source of food and life forever.  When everything on this earth gives way God has a plan to save me through my relationship with His Son Jesus Christ.  When all else fails He still stands.
Do you have security sealed up?  Are you certain?
If you aren’t sure 100% than the answer is you don’t have it.  Those who are in Christ have assurance.  You know who you know when you know them.  But, (there’s always a but)…but, if you don’t know for certain you can change that now right here today. 
One easy step…surrender.
Simply bow your head and surrender your heart to Jesus Christ. Ask Him to forgive you for your sins and for not trusting in Him as the Lord of your life. Receive Him into your heart by asking Him to enter your heart and change you from the inside out.  Ackowledge to Christ that you believe in Him. That you believe He came to earth and died on the cross to save you from sin. Confess to Him you believe He rose again and lives today in the hearts of His people. Surrender everything in your life over to Him.  Thank Him for loving you and choosing you as His child. Dedicate your life to Him to serve only Him for the rest of your days…
If you have prayed this and surrendered your heart right now…I would love to see a post from you acknowledging you have secure certainty in Jesus Christ as the saviour of your life. I would love to hear you can spend an eternity in heaven. I would love to help you grow in your walk with Christ Jesus.
I have no safety in people, things or finances of this earth. But, I am resting safely despite all the uncertainty I am facing right now. That is my dream for you too…for everyone…to rest in certainty.–Cindy

Romans 10:9
because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

Matthew 10:32-33 “Therefore everyone who confesses Me before men, I will also confess him before My Father who is in heaven.
“But whoever denies Me before men, I will also deny him before My Father who is in heaven.

It’s Not About Me!

Philippians 1:6
God is the one who began this good work in you, and I am certain that he won’t stop before it is complete on the day that Christ Jesus returns.

So what is this “good work” God has begun in me that I read about in the book of Philippians? Paul tells me it will be completed ON the day that Christ Jesus returns and that “God” is The One who began that good work and “God” will be The One to complete that good work in me.

2 Corinthians 5:17
New Living Translation
This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!

Ok…that makes it easy to figure out then that “the Good Work” began at salvation and will be completed when I am with Christ in eternity. Pretty clear to me the good work He has begun has zero, notta, absolutely nothing, to do with my capabilities as a human or my talents or lack of talents. But it has everything to do with God and who He is.

As christians, The Holy Spirit and Jesus Christ are at work as One God within us. It isn’t about me or you or our lives. It’s about how God wants our lives to be finished in Him.

Most of my christian walk I have spent trying to find God’s will for my life. I have lived trying to always be the perfect christian trying to please and gain the approval of a perfect God by how I was serving Him. That my friends, I now know, is an impossible unrealistic and sinfully selfish viewpoint I held. It was a complete mask of deception. I had unknowingly at that time made my walk all about me. But it “Ain’t About Me” and it never was nor will it ever be.

While my intentions may have been good my viewpoint was very misguided. I deceivingly thought of God as this Commander in Chief who was trying to put together an army of perfect children who would perfectly obey all His rules and do as He required in His manual. Afterall, that was what pleased Him. That was what I thought what I was tricked in my mind to believe. Can I now tell you what happened at the end of that soldier’s service? That soldier found herself completely exhausted, burnt out and trapped in the darkness of a deep depression. She was pouring herself out every moment of every day, serving and doing everything in the name of the Lord. So she believed. She took on every Church task that came her way and before long she completely burned herself out. She just wanted to serve God with all her heart, soul mind and strength. She wanted to please Him and be used greatly by Him with her gifts and talents. All of that sounded good right? But her heart was being greatly deceived. She was believing a bald face lie. At the discovery of that lie, she looked and saw herself and who she was trying to be and how she was trying to serve to gain God’s love and approval. She never felt good enough in herself. She had never known a love like God’s before and didn’t believe she deserved to have it…that soldier…She became ill from trying to earn God’s love in her own strength because God’s love is a free gift that requires we do nothing for it. This burnt out soldier found she was of no use for anyone. Most especially, she was of no use for The God she loved and longed to serve. Her service was found to be in vain. The lie she discovered was her serving her own ideas of how the manisfestation of God should be happening in her life…instead of just serving for God’s ideal happening of His manisfestation she was hindering herself and her walk with God. The lie was it was truly all about her and what “she” wanted God’s will to be in her life not about God’s will period.

God doesn’t want perfect soldiers He wants children. Children that love Him because He first loved them. Children with whom He can sanctify and grow the relationship between them into complete oneness with Himself. He wants children who will surrender over their wills to become His will. He is the only, One True God, who can lovingly and who purposefully can reflect His character to the world through them. God wants us to come to Him like little children, selflessly abandoned to a complete dependence on Him.

In other words, God does not wish us to hinder ourselves, seeking grandiose ideas of ways we want Him to use us. Rather, God, wants us to humble ourselves and surrender to His ideas of “However” and “Whatever” way His will is to be done. He wants for us to join Him there. He isn’t seeking our perfection but He is seeking to make us more and more One in relation to Him, which leads us to becoming more and more Holy and perfected in His likeness.

What has this soldier learned… I have learned that this christian life is a journey. One that the scriptures say will not be completed until the Day that Jesus Christ returns. I have learned God created us for a purpose and that purpose is that we worship and glorify Him…for who He is… and for “whose” we have been chosen to be.

I can see today, the journey without the lies. I can see that when we selflessly serve Him without restrictions or ideas then we are perfectly accomplishing His will. And it’s then I know… it’s not about me!

Watch “God’s Love letter for you…(worth watching)” on YouTube

There is no greater love than this…For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life. This is the love of The Father for you and for me. I pray you will watch with your eyes and listen with your heart the message of love God has for you in this video.

Road Bumps

When I think back on the relationships I have struggled with, for most of them, misunderstandings were the culprits of the road blocks that stood in the way of that relationship moving forward. So for one to have a misunderstanding I think it is logical to say there had to be a lack of understanding at work.

Urban dictionary defines “MISUNDERSTANDING” this way…

“When two people try pursuing a relationship and run into a roadbump where one knows what’s going on and the other is confused and could jump to conclusions. A lot of relationships end like this sadly.”

In order to remove the road block of misunderstanding three letters must be removed from the scene…MIS. Those three letters when removed leave you with “Understanding”. With “understanding” mountains can be moved. Reconciliation can happen. Let’s look closer at what “understanding” means…

Let us look to Urban Dictionary again, as it words it better than I ever could.

“Understanding…This is the main objective of both sides of every story. Each story shall equally be relevant and important. Understanding is imperative, one shall not be allowed to step on another as he or she pleases and get away with it. It doesn’t matter who was right, or wrong. The main objective today is understanding. We are imperfectly made, but our God given strength is understanding, love. If both of you come to an understanding, both shall be at peace. Fighting, revenge, bickering, provoking violence and anger will not work. Adding fuel to fire isn’t favorable.

Do not let yourself be trapped in misunderstandings and hate

Understanding…get along with everyone, try not to make waves.
Try to find the good in all situations, no matter how hard or challenging. Be kind and care for those who have had it hard,
Try understanding, walk a mile in their shoes.
Love the ones close to you as if it might be the last day you ever see them.
You can do all things thru Christ our load who strenghtens us

Wisdom brings understanding. Understanding comes with wisdom. Where do we gain wisdom? Let’s go to the word of God for this answer.

For the Lord gives wisdom;
from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.Proverbs 2:6 | NIV

Fools find no pleasure in understanding
but delight in airing their own opinions.Proverbs 18:2 | NIV

Who is wise and understanding among you? Let them show it by their good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom.James 3:13 | NIV

The one who gets wisdom loves life;
the one who cherishes understanding will soon prosper.Proverbs 19:8 | NIV

Do not deceive yourselves. If any of you think you are wise by the standards of this age, you should become “fools” so that you may become wise.1 Corinthians 3:18 | NIV

Where there is strife, there is pride,
but wisdom is found in those who take advice.Proverbs 13:10 | NIV

All this also comes from the Lord Almighty,
whose plan is wonderful,
whose wisdom is magnificent.Isaiah 28:29 | NIV

Are there relationships in your life that have hit a road bump? Is there conflict unresolved? Does confusion surround you like a dark cloud? I ask the question, Are you seeking wisdom and understanding regarding the other person? Have you done everything possible to remove those three tiny letters of “mis” out of that roadblock. Seeking to understand the feelings of others is not always easy. But with the wisdom from the Lord, and His understanding working through you, and the other person nothing is impossible. With both parties seeking to understand the other it becomes a win-win situation for that relationship to be reconciled. It begins with you and with me being willing to take that first step to remove that block out of the way. Understanding is the gateway to love.

1 Out Of 3

“Pretending to be happy when you’re alone is an example of how strong you are as a person.
Take care of your thoughts when you’re alone. And take care of your words when you’re with people. We are all so much together but we are all dying of loneliness.”
– Albert Schweitzer

The struggle I face the most is the loneliness of living alone. I remember in my thirties thinking I just want to be alone. Life was chaotic and I just wanted peace and quiet. Solitude was what I thought I wanted. Be careful what you wish for right?

Loneliness happens when you realize the relationships in your life aren’t fulfilling to you. When sudden life changes leave you going to bed and waking up all by yourself. You become lonely. All you begin to hunger for is just someone to enjoy the day with. Someone to talk to. Somebody to go to an event with. A companion to travel a cruise with. Someone to go watch a movie or shop a flea market with. Someone to come over for dinner and a movie. All your heart wants is someone to talk to and share your life with…but there is no one there. Not one person for you.

The reality is most times weeks will go by and not one conversation even happens outside of you and your furr baby. You give invites to friends and family even offering to pay their way only to be told sorry we are busy and can’t make it. Perhaps even worst is you get no reply back from them at all. Ouch! A simple “No” would have been considered a conversation to you. Afterall, it would have been interaction you had not had in a while.

You begin to isolate yourself even more. You go further into depression…further into feeling unloved. You sense rejection at every turn. Yes, living alone hurts and it is no joke.

A recent study from the website says 1 out of 3 people today live alone. That’s staggering when you think about it…

Loneliness effects health and mental well being. When you begin to have health issues that hinders you from being as active or even driving places alone you feel defeated. A loss of your independence to living life has happened. We want to live life like everyone else. We want to go out and enjoy a concert or movie but no one you know is available to assist and attend with you.

That’s the moment when your mind starts lying to you telling you that no one wants to be with you. No one really cares about you. You could die in your sleep but would anyone care? These become the familiar voices you hear in your head day after day. Night after night as you eat alone. As you crawl into bed alone. Some days you don’t want to shower or dress because you don’t see any reason too. Afterall, you aren’t going anywhere. No one will see you. Day after day there is no one who checks in. You begin to fear the “what if’s”…”what if” a medical emergency happens, and “what if” no one finds you until it’s too late. “What if” I fell and broke my hip or “what if” I suffered a stroke and I couldn’t talk or move? How long would I lay on the floor before I died or how long before I was rescued? Will the floor be my final resting place where I take my last breath? These are not feelings of self pity here these are the “what if” feelings of the fearful reality for seniors and singles who live alone every single day. The 1 out of 3 who don’t have regular close relationships with family and friends for whatever reason.

If this is you like it is me…now is the time to grasp your truth. We’re in a season of loneliness and there is not a dern thing we can do to immediately change it. Trust me I tried. Go back up a few paragraphs to the place I said I’ve given several invites out and no responses. It’s just a lonely hard fact: we are alone!  We are the 1 out of 3 lonely.

It’s the Lonely Port place I call it. It’s the time we must look deeply within ourselves to realize our joy isn’t made complete by the relationships of others. It’s time to find the joy that can only come from our Lord. His promise is to never leave us nor forsake us. There is a special joy He has just for those who know Him. We just have to seek it and find it.

His Joy doesn’t require there to be another human soul in it’s existence. His Joy is made complete in Christ alone. It can fill and satisfy that emptiness of being single. We are made to be in relationship with others He designed us He knows this. That first most important and lifegiving relationship begins in Jesus Christ. If you don’t personally have a relationship with Him it is simple to get. Just ask Him He says. Call upon the name of The Lord and you will be saved. Admit you tried doing life without Him and you were wrong. You need Him to enter your heart and become Your Lord. When you do this your loneliness will change. You will still struggle but you will never struggle alone again. His hope now lives in you and me.

When your hope has been thrashed. And your thoughts have become lies. It’s time to put on the Joy of the Lord and wear it. Time to put on a spirit of praise and gratefulness. Make sure everyday we dress up in the whole armor of God and be filled completely by His Spirit.

We can choose to put away that spirit of loneliness. Change our perspective mindset and trust that when we have a relationship with Jesus Christ then we are never ever alone.

Let us give thanks today for He is good and His love and mercy endures forever. Let us relinquish our pain and sorrow and allow the Lord of our life to turn our mourning into dancing.

He never responds with I am too busy. He will never ignore your request. He will always answer. He is always there.

My Best Life For Eternity

Today, I visited The Free life Church in Forney. It was a message about living your best life now. Again, a very timely message for me to hear. I love the beauty of the body of Christ known as The Church. The diversity of cultures and people that were there worshipping Jesus Christ was beautiful. No matter where we go the body if Christ is one body made up of many people. We can find God anywhere we seek Him. The message reminded me of our eternity. The Pastor spoke about how we all tend to live life for us focused on our short time we have on this earth… But without a thought of how we will spend more time living out our life in eternity. It’s so true. We tend to think we have a good 80 to 100 years if we’re blessed to live out our lives. Then we die and it’s all over. We do everything we can to experience our short time hear without the thought we will spend a gatrillion gazillion lifetimes living in eternity in the New Jerusalem. None of us will ever die forever. We will die and either we will live out an eternity in heaven or an eternity in hell. We live our life and it’s but a vapor we have to live it here. Those who know Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Savior will die for a season until they are resurrected again with Christ to live out an eternity with Him in the New Jerusalem. The new place He has been preparing for us. If Christ has gone to prepare a place for us to spend eternity with Him what are we doing to help Him. What are we doing to invest in our eternity? Are we living our best life surrendered and sold out for Christ, serving Him and serving others who we will spend an eternity there? I confess I am not doing my part being 100% sold out for eternity. I am far from living my best life. I honestly serve myself more than I serve others. I spend more time doing what I want to do then doing what Christ wants me to do. It’s a message God is driving home hard to me. A message I need pounded on my heart. Changes are needed from within me. Changes of perspective from the now to the eternity needs to happen. Lord Jesus, I surrender to serve you with all that I am and all that I have. I want to be used by you…I want to do your will not my own. I want to serve others more than myself. I want to help others find their best life too. It has to start with me first. I can only change and grow me. Today. Right now. No more excuses. Time to walk the walk and talk the talk 24/7 for me. Time to live my best life to spend an eternity with Jesus. The King of All Kings. The Lion of Judah. The Great I Am. Are you with me?

Watch “Way Maker Lyric” on YouTube

I learned this new worship song at church…it ministered to my heart so greatly and so timely reminding me that God always makes a way when it seems impossible for there to be a way. He is the way maker…the miracle worker…that is who He is. So many times when I thought my life was over or I couldn’t see a way out of my circumstances He would always find a way to give me that “parting of the red sea experience” just like he gave the children of Israel. He was there for them and He has always been there for me. Sometimes I have to get to the end of myself and move out of His way so He can show me the way. But He never leaves me alone. He’s always there in the midst of my faith crisis. He always has made a way for me when I could see no way through the pain or difficulty. That’s the beauty of knowing Him and His character. The miracle of who He is…it is the miracle of realizing He is that same God today as He was yesterday…the same God who gave all the miracles to the people in the Bible thousands of years ago. He is still that same miracle worker who spared Daniel from the Lion’s Den…the same God who healed the sick, the lame and the blind…the same God who heals us from the pains of our past…He is The Way Maker the Way to reconcile our lost souls and hearts to Him and Jesus’ forgiveness…the same God yesterday, today and forever. That is who He is hallelujah!… I pray you find some time to remember who He is to you and turn your eyes and heart to worship Him. He is worthy of all our love and praise.